Thou Art Enough

“Thou Art Enough…”
- Julian of Norwich

I sit before the computer, but nothing comes. Remembering yesterday’s events feels like giving them power, but I know: suppressing memory gives fear power, while being present in memory gives us the courage to face our deepest fears. Remembering illuminates our lives, revealing what’s ignored and what may lead to healing.

Memory has taught me to survive, but survival wasn’t something I consciously learned. I learned to recognize the power of memory when everything I needed to survive depended on it.

Not long ago, I spoke with God about my soul’s ultimate fate. My prayers were a struggle with what the pastor at my local church taught was “the sin that would lead me to hell.” They taught that my salvation was incomplete unless I gave up my same-sex love.

How could I not know that I am enough?

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”
—Psalms 139 : 13-14

The Creator of my innermost being was calling on me to embrace who I am. The conversion I needed was self-affirmation, not self-denial. My inner self had always known who I am, despite the voices outside condemning me to conversion.